As I Turn 20
Maybe treat myself a little different. Few minutes before I turn 20, I recall all the memories that I've been through. Every single birthday seemed so special but still left a scar and void for every nights that I've questioned who truly loves me. Have I ever felt so special in life that I longed for it every day? I yearn for a love that lasts and doesn't leave you questioning your self-worth as if you really deserve the love that you've been given. I always ask for something that I don't even know. Having this strong sense of feeling, do irrevocable actions that I would probably regret later. I thank myself for being so overthinking for every little things that probably don't matter to other people. I have somehow, a huge crush to an individual who probably won't notice me in a crowd. Definitely my type, if I must say. Well, I'll just probably admire him from afar. I regret being so curious that day. Now, I'm back again to being a hopeless roman...